January 2010
32 posts
stupidridiculous:
dreamhard:
In the light we
look at other things
to avoid the
more seductive things.
I kiss your full lips
Stare at your brown eyes
this is where we
Get out of line
And this is so wrong
I feel so bad
As I eye your thong
As I cup your ass
And we’re caught up
As I’m deep in
You hold me tight as the next day we sleep in
And this becomes our bad habit every weekend
...
“i was hungry.. but your the one that came with the empty stomach”
– the questions of: when will it be my turn?
tea, honey and sugar
TEA:Its 7am and I have put on an illegal -electric kettle in my dorm room, ready to just write whatever comes to mind and speak to anybody curious enough to look at a title not so intriguing while I sip slowly on my tea. Even though I am not a morning person, being awake before everyone clears my thoughts and highly relaxes my entire day.Im waiting for 8:30 to sneak on me for 9 am english class..
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“if you want me my souls sold seperately”
is it?
is it wrong to want to be with something that hurts you and makes you smile all at the same time and you cant do SHIT about it…
IS IT?
had great sex tonight 1/25/2010 -_- .it just seemed different, i felt wanted…..bittersweet <3
i feel like being a quiet, ignorant asshole for awhile
being nice is such a set-up
“I miss bein in love..but then I remember I dont miss the bullshit that comes...”
– the tangled web i weave
Sometimes I wish I had a dick..so I could tell you...
letting it all out
lesson one: Im pissed.. NO Im kind of passed pissed at these motherfuckers who think they know me.Who think I conform to what my friends do. I aint in high school no more I dont get peer pressured. I do what I want because I FUCKIN want too. And who are you to judge the life I live. Its a choice….. I give two fucks about what you, you or YOU have to think about me..Im...
dreamz are what you make of it...
Did you know when you dream of someone dying that symbolizes a change. Either you see a change in them, a change has occurred about them, or a change is coming…
My brother woke me up this morning and asked if i was ok? I replied yeah Im fine. He said he had a dream about me dying of a heart attack at a young age. And it felt so real
I was actually happy to hear that..only because when I...
“you cant cry over spilled milk..whats done is done..clean it up and move on.”
– i have no damn clue-world motto 2
HOW DO YO GET OVER SOMEONE THAT WAS NEVER EVEN YOURS??
“I HATE YOUR FREAKIN GUTS…..YOUR THE SCUM BETWEEN MY TOES”
– LOVE ALFALFA
decisions..decisions(busy month February)
Alot of people tell me never put a timeline on Big Decsions. but im going to stop listening to people and do what i want.
So Im going to decide whether or not Im going to stay at Savannah State or transfer by the end of February
pick out all my scholarships by the end of Feb./payment for my next school year
Car?
Saving?
I BETTTTTTTER HAVE A DAMN VALENTINE..IM TOO CUTE NOT TO GET CHOCOLATE:]]
...
who is she to you
I saw the train comin’ for me with the force of a million marching I felt the eyes of so many, the whispers and shouts about my belief in….you
I just want to find my escape, a place in my mind i can go to so i can channel my negative thoughts into a positive energy.
I see the cloaks on the judges, flaws in the judgement, beast in the dungeon that dont scare me
I give love if I were...
“because the more pieces you get the harder it is to put together, yet the...”
– malaika aminata
speechless
heart just dropped…it hurts..again
it shouldnt tho…i knew better…my cancer is that i care too much and it puts me in fucked up situations and resulting in it being my fault because i was so naive. i guess i am the type of female who gets attached after opening my legs..For a minute I thought I could be like a nigga and put no feelings with it…wrong
Meaning i mentally and...
ohserena:
Bobby Caldwell-What You Won’t Do For...
“starting to believe my only purpose on earth is my kushi..thats all niggas want...”
– smfh
versus
people vs. friends
like vs. love
consider the the two the same>very sensitive
I really need to learn the definition of people versus friends..they are very far from the same.You cant call everyone that smiles to you or ask you how your days going, lets your borrow a dollar,makes you laugh a friend, sometimes (no most times) niggas have an alternative motive to speak to you or be your so...
“im going to love you on my own.even if you dont feel the same.ima be on my grown...”
– frusterated minds are some way all the same
....(?)
Feeling at a loss for words..
Everything that comes to mind has a good or bad consequence
:boys
:”friends”
:school
:my whole thought process in all
he dont want too i cant make him,they keep lyin i cant shake them, i keep tryin they dont see it,ive stopped cryin but my tears aint done yet. i love to smile when they like to see me down and i smile alot cause im on my own now.
A relief of utter confusion
Its finally a new year and as people decide whether or not there going to go through with their resolutions, I sit back and position myself in utter confusion. Not based on a value I which to change about myself but more on what can I do now to change my future for the best. In two days Im headed back to college—another four months of my own decision making,stress,random people, great...
“all you want is sex and company,i understand.it is very understandable.”
– the thinkin nature of me
It can only get better from here.
Wow.
So this was my first year I got to do something for the new year,so as young adult I decided why not hit the club.Something I do often but not often as others. I was so excited, I had a new outfit,new makeup..I was just feeling the whole night. For the first time I did not pre-game cause I figured” Hey its new years, I might get lucky and a nigga might buy me a drink”…FYI(i...