i cant even be mad at you,for being who you are.too much effort went into this too much valuable time and too much feelings.Its sad that we are not even together I feel as if you ripped my heart out of my chest..but I cant even be mad cause we’re not together, you told me from get go you aint want a relationship, but i figured like any typical black girl that I could change, or somehow make you mine.I even told myself everyday you were fuckin other bitches so if it was true then it wouldnt hurt that bad..but it hurt me even harder when I found out it was true, I thought to myself  Here I Go Again, back in the predicament of my ex, never being just that only girl to make you happy, but then i remembered again that WE ARE NOT together, and maybe a title would ruin what we have, the fact is i dont even care about the title anymore, even though i want it bad i know its for the best.ima let it go ..the feelings i have are not a “i think, or maybe” more like “I know “..I know im past caring about you, the situation is bigger than that cause I couldnt even leave..I left with words un spoken. Could I be using the big “L” word, possibly.. im just scared to say it, because now I know Im the only one that feels that way.

-signed,

a bruised black heart that is trying to repair